dear dajie,erjie,sanjie,sanny..
i have no words left tosay except that i'm really really sry. i shouldnt have taken it out on u guys n for that i'm truly sry.being in a lousy mood aint an excuse, i should have known better. i'm sry if the words i said hurt u, like a slap in the face. i am frustrated, but not at u guys. not at all. sanjie, i'm sry i made u cry. i know non of u had seen it coming. neither did i. it felt like i didnt know who i was anymore after that. n i'm sry if i made all of u worry when i ran off just like that. i'm sry that every one of u got called n worried for me. i needed space, but that wasnt the right way to get it.
i know u would say that i should have said something earlier, n u guys would be thr to listen. i know that. but i couldnt. cos u c, u were all part of the conflict that was going on in my head. part of me is sometimes frustrated at u guys, for making me do the right things, the things i dun wanna do. the other part of me keeps reminding that without u guys, i'm nothing. i'll be no where. n so i had to do this on my own. i'm sry if i have been shutting u guys out. its not that i dun need or care abt u guys anymore, i just need to settle my own issues on my own this time.
i really do appreciate all of u guys wanting to spend nearly all ur time with me before i leave even when u guys could be doing something else. all of u mean the world to me n it hurts me to know that i was stupid enough to hurt the ppl that i know care most abt me. it makes me annoyed with myself for not handling my own emotions better.
i'm sry for what happened today. n i know that some/all of u would want to talk but i dun think i'm up for it yet. need a lil bit of space to try clear my head. i know it will be hard for u guys to respect that, but i also know u will. with me being the youngest i know its practically in ur blood to all come rushing to my aid everytime i get into trouble but for this once, i need to think on my own. i promise i'll come find u guys the moment i have settled my issues ok ? :)
i love u guys. thank u for always being thr despite me always causing so much trouble n inconvienice. i'm sry if anything i've said or done have cos greater hurt than it ws suppose to.
catch u guys real sooon..
love, mei
i have no words left tosay except that i'm really really sry. i shouldnt have taken it out on u guys n for that i'm truly sry.being in a lousy mood aint an excuse, i should have known better. i'm sry if the words i said hurt u, like a slap in the face. i am frustrated, but not at u guys. not at all. sanjie, i'm sry i made u cry. i know non of u had seen it coming. neither did i. it felt like i didnt know who i was anymore after that. n i'm sry if i made all of u worry when i ran off just like that. i'm sry that every one of u got called n worried for me. i needed space, but that wasnt the right way to get it.
i know u would say that i should have said something earlier, n u guys would be thr to listen. i know that. but i couldnt. cos u c, u were all part of the conflict that was going on in my head. part of me is sometimes frustrated at u guys, for making me do the right things, the things i dun wanna do. the other part of me keeps reminding that without u guys, i'm nothing. i'll be no where. n so i had to do this on my own. i'm sry if i have been shutting u guys out. its not that i dun need or care abt u guys anymore, i just need to settle my own issues on my own this time.
i really do appreciate all of u guys wanting to spend nearly all ur time with me before i leave even when u guys could be doing something else. all of u mean the world to me n it hurts me to know that i was stupid enough to hurt the ppl that i know care most abt me. it makes me annoyed with myself for not handling my own emotions better.
i'm sry for what happened today. n i know that some/all of u would want to talk but i dun think i'm up for it yet. need a lil bit of space to try clear my head. i know it will be hard for u guys to respect that, but i also know u will. with me being the youngest i know its practically in ur blood to all come rushing to my aid everytime i get into trouble but for this once, i need to think on my own. i promise i'll come find u guys the moment i have settled my issues ok ? :)
i love u guys. thank u for always being thr despite me always causing so much trouble n inconvienice. i'm sry if anything i've said or done have cos greater hurt than it ws suppose to.
catch u guys real sooon..
love, mei
posted by hoonster at 01:24
6 Comments:
omg... mei, this is so sweet of u. n u dun have to apologize for anything. it was partly our fault too n we should have known better than to just rub it in your face like that... n u know wat, take all the time u need. just know that we're always here for u dear :) i love u mei. n u mean the world to me too. :D besides kl :P huggies :) -san
awwww.. u need to learn to stop apologizing tho. u aint perfect, neither is any of us. so its all good. n u had better not take too long or we'll all kill u. nah i'm kidding. take care ok mei?? lub chew many many! :) -a
u know u dun owe us an apology. n from wat i heard, u had every right to be frustrated n everyone has a breaking point my dear girl. its in our blood to worry for u, its also in ur blood to make us fuss so we're even on that account. i know its been hard on u the past few wks. i know the struggles, it isnt fun at all. but u got to hang in thr my dear lil one.(u're doing great so far btw.) and we'll all be thr going thru it all with u. we love u and u know how much we wish things could be better but since its beyond our control, we can only help u have the best of times till the day u leave to freedom. n rmb, no matter how far away u are, u'll always be in our hearts. u r one heck of a special kid n u mean the world to me mei :) lots of love, c
u know mei, i would rather spend time with u than anything else in the world (minus being with my baby)cos u're the most lovable, fun, crazy, hardworking, energetic, caring, loving,smart, mature.. ok i'm running out of words but u get the drift. i know its been hard on u. sometimes i wish so much u could just be OUR lil sis n that u could be happy all the time. one thing u must know, is that this dage of urs is gonna miss u so very very very much when u're gone n in usa. but hey, i know its for the best n u'll be happy. but promise me u'll come back n visit or i'm flying over to hunt u down ok? n pls pls pls know that i'll always be here for u no matter wat. anything that upsets u, give me a call skype, wtv. time is not a prob. ok ? n perhaps i dun say this enough. but i love u mei, with all my heart. i truly do love u as much as a big bro could possibly love his kid sis. cheer up ya? i wanna c that cheeky grin back on ur face soon :) with much love, dage
i'm sry too mei.. u're always so sensitive to us, watching for the slightest thing that makes us unhappy but yet we only made things worse for u without even realising until u snapped. i'm here if u need me ok?? :) plus i'm probably super free since the one person that's been keeping me company all the time i've been back is now... haha. :) i love u dear girl. n if thr's one thing that would nv change, its that u'll always be my lil sis :) hugs. i hope u'll feel better soon. -l
even tho its relatively late n u should be tired n u should be slping. its great to have u back kiddo! :D -ern
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