ok. before u guys complain that i dun post anymore or that i didnt give u any warning. this might be a lil emo. but i feel i really have to do this. not i wanna be annoying n make u cry or anything ok. haha.

i'm sry if i made u guys worry a lot for me cos i was not slping n chionging out stuff that was needed on sat. i know. n i also know u guys worried abt how i just kept working n not do anything else, not eating not drinking.. i should have known better n not made u guys worry abt me so much. n even tho i often get annoyed at all ur constant naggings, yes i know u did it cos u cared. n no sanjie i wasnt mad at u or anything for bugging me all the way from another country. i'm honoured u actually bothered even :)

n i'm sry for scaring the daylights out of c n sanny when i was so frustrated i had a break down that nite. n sanny, thank u so much for sacrificing ur own slp to help me cut stuff n feed me with milk n cookies when u could easily have just gone to bed like everyone else. n i know u guys stayed up to try help me even tho most of u had work the next day so thank u all very very much. :)

i do feel bad for not being ard so much last wk. or rather i was just drowning in my "work". n then now even when i get to spend time with u guys i dun really seem happy. pls dun get it wrong. i love love love spending time with all of u. i really do. n i'm really thankful that i have such an awesome bunch of ppl that i can spend time with all the time. its just that this whole leaving thing is getting into me n its starting to seem a lot harder than i thot it would be. part of me is feeling like i should try not to spend too much time with u guys cos its only going to make leaving harder than it alr is. n the other part of me is screaming for me not to be stupid n spend all the time i possibly can with u guys.

erjie, godpa n godma, i really appreciate it that u guys flew back just to spend time with me before i leave. n despite all the hassle with the quarantine n stuff, u guys nv ever complained. u've nv complained abt anything u've had to do for me. n in my eyes, u'll always be my family. u guys have done so much for me, i'll nv forget it n i'm forever grateful to u guys for all u've done for me.

i know i've been emo. n i know u guys have been trying hard to make me happy again. i know u've told me countless of times how happy u guys r that i'm going to someplace i really wanna be. some place i can be happy. n it might seem quite ironic to say this. but no matter how emo or down i am, being with u guys is wat always makes me happy. just watching how u guys have fun together n enjoy each other's company alone is enough to make me happy.

i'm truely honoured to have all of u by my side always. caring n fussing over me all the time. i know i wouldnt have come this far without u guys. so thank u to each n every one of u for being such wonderful ppl in my life. i know that no matter how far away i may be, i can always turn to u guys. thank u for all the times u've stood by me, cried with me, laughed with me. i know in more ways than i can imagine, u guys have spoilt me rotten. n i can promise u, no matter whr i am, u guys will always be in my heart.

n while i continue to have this huge battle within my self. i hope u guys know that i love all of u v much. n i will spend watever time i can with u guys n i will treasure them all :)